::............... inhabit corners.::

proxemics is the study of how people interact with and relate to the inanamate objects in the spaces they inhabit. relationship proxemics is anthrobabble applied to my life.
:: talk to me:my corner: book reviews(fixed, so click here!):my list collection::
[::..just me..::]
[::penguin from suse::]
[::..there are some seriously weird things online, other than me darn it, check out some of the more intersting ones..::]
:: freebozz electric - yeah zork!::
::info and petition about the armenian genocide. my brother pointed this out ::
:: the spark, take quizes, waste time, and read about some really weird experiments. very cool excpet for the gender quiz which called me a guy::
::stick figure death theatre recomended by movie steve::
:: this guy is selling imortality for free. creepy fun ::
:: gag gifts such as toxic waste candy are found here::
:: the fun stuff that never quite hits the headlines is here::
:: dress up jesus - from my charmingly odd friend jeff, who wanted me to mention he doesn't hate christians, he just has a since of humor as twisted as mine...::
::be nice to penguins, darnit::
:: urban legends, the scholarly take. recommended by my guy ::
[::..nowhere did i claim that i was normal..::]
[::...neither are most of the people i know, but normal's boring, anyway..::]
:: my guy. his friends call him a charming booger, i think you'll see why. (and yes the redhead is me)::
:: nikki,who puts her writings and rantings here,actually trusted me to come up with a cool tagline for this link. ::
:: emily, a friend from school who writes very nifty angsty poems.::
:: dru, who is still ignoring the fact that those of us without lj's can't be on his friends list, has a demented pic of himself here.::
:: greg, my old assistant manager's short lived flirtation with blogger. i've broken this link at his request.::
:: kari, my step sister, who hasn't updated this in a while now.::
:: dara, my old roomate and one of the people i'm happiest i knowwho has finally given my the link bug her to add her new poems, "none of your business" rocks!::
:: joanna, who has abandoned geocities for an LJ. bah. i still like my blog ::
:: my mom. who will have a better page for her product as soon as we figure out the details and i make it for her::
:: jason, my ex coworker who has since ran away to arizona, has his art work up here::
:: my dad, this is from his business page, but there's a decent picture of him.::
:: james, full of shit but writes pretty good music, has his band's web page here.::
:: my friend steve discets movies, and actually links back to me yeah!, here.::
:: jill, aka penelope, the sister that embarasses my old district manager. most recently seen talking about her implants in the November issue of Jane.::
[::..speak up! there's a forum for everyone, here's a few of the more interesting one's i've found..::]
:: Scarleteen Forums, enlightened, alt. lifesyle friendly sex ed.::
:: hitchhikers guide to the galaxy. almost everything under and including the sun is discussed here. douglas adams won't soon be forgotten.::
:: pro scurvy. i don't know if they're serious. it's strangely facinating, tho, somehow...::
:: The Thin (and reinvented at a new address) Page, an interesting subculture lives here. please don't flame them and eat bandwith, ok? they've heard it all already..::
:: Marigold, add 1 part sleepover and 2 parts political rally to blender with dash canadian accent. mix. enjoy...::
:: lord of the rings gaming forum. geeky? yes. fun? infinately so....::
:: Blogger Forum, fix your code...::
[::..archive..::]
::.starting now.........::

:: Wednesday ::

i'm pretty sure i broke my toe at work today. it's swelling a bit and if i press on my foot near my toe it hurts.and the nurce who works part time on my staff looked at it and says it looks like a hairline fracture. since it's not my big toe all they would do for me is tell me not to put weight on it and ice it and splint it to the next toe over. so traci (the afore mentioned nurce) splinted it to my next toe and i tied an icepack to my foot and went limping back to my duties. did i mention i broke my toe at work? i didn't drop a book on my toe, either. i kicked something that someone should not have left on the floor. clear things should not be left where they can be kicked, darnit, especially when there are clumsy people present who wear sandles. ouch. bah. i have to put more ice on it now. or maybe a bag of frozen peas or something. g'nite
:: 7/31/2002 11:00:00 PM [+] ::
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:: Thursday ::
note to self: you cannot drink as much as a guy. being female gives you an inherently lower tollerance. you need to not try to keep up. being sociable does not demand it, and actually it becomes unsociable especially when said keeping up causes you to decide that a couch cushion is the proper weapon to use when joining an up to that point civil pillow fight. ouch. oh well, i'm glad my guy has tollerant friends, b/c i'm occationally a real brat.
:: 7/18/2002 11:15:00 PM [+] ::
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:: Tuesday ::
i need to learn two things: how to be constructively angry, and how to be more organized. actually i need to learn a lot of things, but these two i need to learn first i think. i get angry. i complain to people who i'm not angry at, and by the time i get to talk to the person who pissed me off i'm over it and nothing major gets said and nothing changes. i bitch about work to my guy. i bitch about my guy to my friends. i bitch about my friends at work. i don't talk to the people who are angering me directly. it's silly. it needs to change. and the organizational thing - i lost something important in my desk. argh. anyway,....jason from school who i haven't spoken too in wayyyyyyy tooooo looooooonnnnngggg called me back today. it;s silly how estatic i am to hear from a friend lol.
:: 7/16/2002 08:26:00 PM [+] ::
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:: Friday ::
so i'm tired and strung out on too much caffeine followed by none followed by way too much. so what. i'm too winey lately. thats not a good thing. i'm annoying everyone, including myself. so instead lets talk about the good stuff today shall we? i saw two movies today, men in black II and rein of fire. nothing profound, just junk food for the brain. i love seeing double matinees with my guy. it's a weird tradition we're starting - when we haven't seen much of each other for awhile but are both too tire/brain dead/overworked to do anything meaningful we spend a few hours being braindead together and it reconnects us a bit. it's such a geeky thing to do, which is probably why it works so well for us. now if only there were more fun movies so we could do it more often...but then we'd be deadbroke so i guess things are good as they are.
:: 7/12/2002 08:36:00 PM [+] ::
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:: Thursday ::
i'm unsure of myself in a way i've never been unsure before. whatever i've come up against before, i've always know that if i did my absolute best, if i was perfect, i could do what needed doing. needless to say i haven't always been perfect, haven't always done my best, so i haven't always done what needed doing. but at least the option to do things right was there. i've never felt this in over my head before tho. i'm doing all that i can do. running myself almost ragged (i'm no good to anyone, not even myself, when ragged so almost ragged is always the best idea) and things still aren't right. i can't do it. i can almost get it done. but not quite. it's driving me nuts that i've come up against something that i can't quite do on my own. it's that group project where i have to rely on the group and i'm not sure if they're capable of holding up their end...not that i haven't been there before...but before i was capapble enough to balance them out. now i'm not. i have to trust someone else to do well enough to make me look good. and that's scary. i'm not sure which part of it scares me most really - having to trust people, or finding something i can't do on my own. maybe if i'm perfect anyway i'll get through...


i still havent hear from jason and juliette. i'll try again tomorrow i think. i miss them.

:: 7/11/2002 01:03:00 PM [+] ::
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:: Monday ::
no word from jason and juliette. i'm undecided on wether or not to try again.

i need to figure out how to change my eating patterns/get more exercize without obsessing over it. i'm not on an i hate myself/hate my body kick. i've just gotten a size bigger recently after having been the same size for about 2 years so not many of my cloths fit and i figure that loosing the weight i gained will be cheaper than buying new cloths. but every time i try to get started i get obsessive about it. i make lists of food allowed or not allowed. i record every bite that goes into my mouth on fit day and beat myself up over it. i read cookbooks and droll. (well the last one's pretty normal for me, but it just intensifies.) i overly restrict then end up binging when it's 11pm and my stomach is rumbling and i can't sleep. it sucks. i need to find a way to do this without going nuts. argh.

:: 7/01/2002 07:19:00 PM [+] ::
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